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Cold BLows the Wind

Wed Dec 2, 2009, 6:50 PM

IT MIGHT SNOW FRIDAY. SO EXCITED.

It's been pretty cold here recently. which is awesome! we might actually have a winter this year! pretty happy about that. I'm excited for christmas and really ready for christmas break!

This weekend I'm doing this workshop with someone I'm in PALs with. It's for her Girls Scout Gold Award project. It's basically a workshop to help girls with self-esteem by showing them their inner beauty and stuff like that. It should be fun. I'm a group leader, so it'll be a cool experience. I also get community service and NHS points for it. so yayy!

anyway, I don't have anything else to say, except that I'm super excited for ikkicon!!

/kaiOUT

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Mood: Christmas Spirited
Reading: a clockwork orange-Anthony Burgess
Watching: Top chef
Playing: Katamari Damacy
Drinking: apple cider

having a real horrorshow time.

Journal Entry: Thu Nov 26, 2009, 4:21 PM

Updattteeee.

So I'm abouuttt 95% done with my Lain cosplay! Got my haircut and contacts and everything else. All I need to do is dye my hair and figure out a shoe situation. I'm not sure what Ikkicon's shoe policy is...even though I've gone four years in a row...

so I need to figure that out and once I do I need to either get lyricals or figure out a plan for shoes... Lain doesn't wear shoes when she's wearing the outfit I'm cosplaying, so idk. I may just end up wearing my rilakkuma slippers because she doesss have bear slippers. So that's my last resort. :/ BUT everything's all finished. OH. EXCEPT. I need to alter an alligator clip to attatch to my lip and get a few more for my hair. THEN I'll be done. lol also I am going to wear my new lolita dress that I got when I ordered my contacts for the Lolita tea party that is supposed to be happening at Ikki. I can't wait! I hope they have a para para panel! I'm so excited for Ikki! even though I was just at an anime convention like 2 months ago, I'm already wanting to go to another one! I already have con fever! better get on my game watching anime so I can have all kinds of new series to obsessively buy merchandise for while I'm there. Can't wait! and I'm especially excited for the raves because ikki raves are always the best! Anywayyyy.

I have homework to do...I should've done it way earlier this break but I didn't. I have a big paper to write, but I haven't even finished t\reading the book it's over, so it'll have to get done when that's finished. blehhh. and I think I have to write a lab report...not sure when that's due though. I think it's due later... I think. lol but I don't think any of you are concerned wiht my schoolwork. xD

I've been doin alright for the most part. not much to report. lol.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!

I suppose that is all.

until next time,

/kaiOUT.

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Mood: Cheerful
Reading: a clockwork orange-Anthony Burgess
Playing: Katamari Damacy
Eating: THANKSGIVINGGGGGG :9
Drinking: Coffee

Skin by =The-Blood-Diamond

Cosplay resolution!!! :D

Journal Entry: Sat Nov 14, 2009, 7:55 PM

So after some thinking and stressing and being sick at the thought of spending $170 I don't have on cosplay, I finally came to a resolution!!

I was going to cosplay Pururin(Welcome to the NHK!) but the cosplay was going to cost me upwards of about $170-200. money I don't have, frankly. I really want to do that cosplay, but it will have to wait.

So I finished Serial Experiments Lain. And it's one of my favourite animes... and I want to cosplay Lain but I thought it'd be lazy to do the kigurumi and too expensive to do her school uniform. wellll I decided I would do the "wired" outfit. which can be found here [link]
I'm going to get contacts and dye and cut my hair to look like lain's for Ikki. It's a little sad when you're willing to sacrifice your hair for an anime convention. xD although it's not a drastic change. lol but yeah. it's simple, so I'm willing to put a lot of effort into it to make it really nice.

I'm excited I finally came to a resolution on my cosplay. I'm trying to talk

into cosplaying as god from Lain. hopefully he'll do it since I found him a $9 wig and I have the rest of the stuff already for him. so hopefully that works out. I'm having a much better attitude about this now that I have a prospective cosplay and partner with which to do it with. I was a little bummed that I was the only one without a partner or group at this con, honestly. I was trying to look on the bright side of things but I was still a little bummed. But now I'm not so yayyy!

so here are my cosplays for Ikki:

Lain of the Wired (serial experiments lain)
Natsuo (Loveless)
Rilakkuma Kigurumi. :3

I'm quite satisfied. Oh and I promise I'll get pics of my natsuo cosplay up soon. I just need to find the time to get fixed up put it on and take nice photos with it on. xD so coming soon pics of natsuo costume and lain. and also I don't have any rilakkuma kigu pics on here either. I'll get those on there as well.... anyway!

that's all for now!

/kaiOUT

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Mood: Eager
Reading: going to start a clockwork orange
Watching: Last exile
Playing: lux pain-on hold
Eating: hot pocket

Skin by =The-Blood-Diamond

I'm sleeping in a submarine_cosplay,update, etc.

Journal Entry: Tue Nov 10, 2009, 3:48 PM

Sooo things are starting to settle down around here finally. which is good. I mean it's not like nothing ever happened, but eveything's smoothing out.

I'm really excited for ikkicon! it's in January. Sooooo close but so far awayyyy! I want to do another cosplay. I think i'm going to cosplay Pururin-chan from NHK. could be a little difficult, but hey whatever. I'll try. I'm glad that I know for sure that I'm going to ikki. for a while it was a little up in the air and I was like nooooooo! because I've never missed an ikkicon since the first year it opened. I hope to have another really cool cosplay but other than pururin I don't really have and ideas... Maybe I'll do kanamemo or lain, but lain seems really lazy since all i'd need to do is cut my hair slightly differently-not an issue- and wear my rilakkuma kigu. laaazzzyy. or maybe I could do lain's school uniform. who knows. So there are some cosplays that I want to do but tentatively, they won't be happening any time soon...

-Klavier Gavin (phoenix wright)
-Ema Skye (Phoenix Wright)
-Len or rin (vocaloid)
-Pururin-chan (NHK)
-Misaki-chan (NHK)
-Ritsuka (Loveless)
-Kana (kanamemo)
-lil' slugger might be fun. (paranoia agent)
-Ogawa (high school girls)
- MAYBE Mitsuki or Anna (He is my master)

I guess that's all the ideas I have for now... I don't think they'll ever get done though. :/ I'm too lazy and unskilled. I wish I could cosplay a sexy lady because that would be so fun, but I'm not uhm...mature looking...enough to pull it off. so I'd just look like a skanky girl. xD

in other newssss....

Been really wanting to do a photoshoot lately with LMD but it seems impossible to get everyone together or to want to do a specific shoot so lmd's on hiatus....again.

but we've taking a few shots at school because I'm in a photography class so Reina and I take photos. and edit old ones as well lol.

blehhh. i'm tired of being singleeeee. but whatever. not a big deal. just me being whiney and not making an effort to meet anyone new. but in my defense, there aren't exactly loads of options at my school and I don't go out much to meet people so whatever.

been a bit artblocked/in a slump. not liking my style much and not happy with any of my character designs.. whateverrrrrrrrr. it'll pass. lol
well I suppose that is all.

/kaiOUT!

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Mood: Tired
Listening to: stop coming to my house- mogwai
Watching: Kuroshitsuji and junjou romantica
Playing: lux pain-on hold
Eating: curry
Drinking: Milk

Skin by =The-Blood-Diamond

Rest In peace Grandma Mary.

Mon Oct 12, 2009, 10:07 AM

This morning I found out that my Grandma who has been battling cancer for the past 11 months passed away.

She was always such a strong and healthy woman. I admired her so much. When I found out she had cancer, I couldn't believe it because she had always been so strong. Seeing her so weak was the hardest thing. I had never seen her that way before so I didn't even recognize her most of the time. She was such a different person. I mean she was still my grandma but I felt like she had changed, which in reality, she had. she had become cancer to me. and for this I will never forgive myself. I feel so ashamed that for these 11 months I found it hard to look at her. I'm disgusted with myself.

I was pretty close with my Grandma. Since I was little, I had always looked forward to her visiting from her home in California, and likewise visiting her. She was always very cheery and funny and always brought and sent gifts from her travels across the world. She is the person who so strongly influenced my father, stepmom, and I to begin traveling and scuba diving. Without her, I probably would never have even thought of scuba diving. I am eternally thankful that she introduced me to such an amazing hobby. I'll always remember diving with her. she was my dive buddy. we always stuck side by side when diving. I Want to remember her as she was then. I don't ever want to remember her with cancer. she was no longer herself. I feel like she died for me eleven months ago, but at least her body was still here to comfort me, if only a little.

I'm just so devastated. She'll never see me graduate or even get my driver's license. I'll never see her on a plane or in a wetsuit again. I'll never hug her or admire her ridiculously long french braided hair again. I never hug her again or hear her Minnesotan accent again. I'm going to miss her so much. I'll never receive another "care package", a box filled with random nick-knacks and gifts from abroad, again. Last time I saw her, I promised her I would dye what little hair she had growing back pink for her. She really wanted this. I regret that I ever got the chance to give her one last smile.

She had such a strong impact on me. I don't understand why she had to be afflicted with such a terrible illness. It isn't fair. she never did anything to deserve such misery. I'm happy she's no longer in pain, but I'm also angry. I'm mad at her. isn't that disgusting? I'm so mad that she would leave us in such pain. I never got any closure with her. I last saw her about 2 weeks ago and the last thing I said was "see you in a week or so : D" with a big grin as though I was so sure I'd see her. Stupid. I shouldn't ever assume. I should have hugged her more lovingly and told her I loved her more meaningfully. I just couldn't bear to hug her too tightly for fear I'd break her frail body. I didn't want to make her cry with sincerity. I was so scared to show emotion. I didn't want her to know I was scared that she'd die, as though me not showing it made the reality all that less real to her. she knew she was dying. I just didn't want her to know I knew. I wanted to make her think I thought of her like she was before the cancer, even though I knew she wasn't.

This world is cruel and filled with disgusting people and hideous criminals who deserve to die a painful death. she isn't one of them. Why did she have to get such a horrible disease while fucking disgusting criminals like Charles Manson sit alive and well in prison. people like that deserve to die. not pure-of-heart grandmothers who love nothing more than to be with her family and diving. It isn't fair.

This world is cruel.